And that's putting it lightly. Not... here though. Not really. [Though she has her doubts about Keigo which is why she's decided never to tell him. Everyone else has always been very kind and given her no reason to doubt them.]
....It's... not that I don't trust you though. [She wants to.]
There are some things that are harder to talk about than others. It doesn't always have to do with trust... just that it's painful to talk about, and the painful things are the ones that get stuck in your throat more than anything.
[ Even Maya has her secrets-- but she smiles warmly at Shiho after a few seconds. ]
So I'm not offended or anything. I'm really honored that you wanted to tell me, Shiho-chan.
[Shiho's hands are clutched tight in her lap, her own tea forgotten as she listens. And for a moment she kind of thinks... it would be nice to grow up to be an adult like Maya.
Then she looks back up, mouth pulled into a pout.]
...It's not like it's a huge secret. And it's not... just about being an esper. There are a lot of different powers. It's my power that's the issue. I guess. I'm a psychometer.
[Shiho can't help but worry that maybe Maya just doesn't understand the scope of her powers. She can read everything if she wanted to force it.]
What, are you the one single person in this world that doesn't have some sort of dirty secret? A stash of embarrassing books you don't want someone to find?
But no, there's a lot that I haven't talked about. And it's not something I'd probably bring up. But you're someone Minato-kun wants to be with, and beyond that, I trust you, Shiho-chan. Even if you saw it, I don't think you'd go running around yelling it to the entire town.
Some teenage girls have stashes of embarrassing books too. [Like Kaoru, for one.]
....I just say that I could. I'm not... actually going to look too far into your mind. [Because she knows people could hate her for it and she doesn't want to chance it with someone she wanted to make a good impression on.]
It's harder to look at stuff you don't want to bring up anyway. Especially if you know I'm going to look.
[She's not sure she believes that at all. But Shiho won't hold too tightly to Maya's hand, keeping her own grip loose, ready to let Maya withdraw from all this if neede.
[ It's fine; Maya doesn't draw back, and Shiho can pick up all sorts of things just a shallow level. Contentment, that they're having girly bonding. Curiosity, still (always). Happiness, that Shiho trusts her enough for this, and a warm trust of her own.
But just underneath all of this is something like... bittersweet nostalgia. As though Maya's recalling something from this, something she can never return to. ]
[What embarrassing, embarrassing feelings. Shiho's expression twists into something that is trying desperately not to be bashful.
It helps that underneath there's something bittersweet lurking and so she... lets go. That's too far to go into something she shouldn't be looking at.]
.....Is everyone here like this, or something? You're all so embarrassingly honest. You, Minato, Kaoru-chan.... everyone. [never mind that's only actually three people.]
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... You're nervous, aren't you? I imagine you've met a lot of people who don't react the best to what they don't understand.
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And that's putting it lightly. Not... here though. Not really. [Though she has her doubts about Keigo which is why she's decided never to tell him. Everyone else has always been very kind and given her no reason to doubt them.]
....It's... not that I don't trust you though. [She wants to.]
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[ Even Maya has her secrets-- but she smiles warmly at Shiho after a few seconds. ]
So I'm not offended or anything. I'm really honored that you wanted to tell me, Shiho-chan.
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Then she looks back up, mouth pulled into a pout.]
...It's not like it's a huge secret. And it's not... just about being an esper. There are a lot of different powers. It's my power that's the issue. I guess. I'm a psychometer.
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[ She supposes that could maybe be intrusive, but... ]
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Out of curiosity, do you want to try it on me?
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...Do you want me to?
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What, are you the one single person in this world that doesn't have some sort of dirty secret? A stash of embarrassing books you don't want someone to find?
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[ That aside-- ]
But no, there's a lot that I haven't talked about. And it's not something I'd probably bring up. But you're someone Minato-kun wants to be with, and beyond that, I trust you, Shiho-chan. Even if you saw it, I don't think you'd go running around yelling it to the entire town.
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....I just say that I could. I'm not... actually going to look too far into your mind. [Because she knows people could hate her for it and she doesn't want to chance it with someone she wanted to make a good impression on.]
It's harder to look at stuff you don't want to bring up anyway. Especially if you know I'm going to look.
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[ Maya may be a bit simple, but she does mean it. ]
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[ Inexplicably. But she's easily reaching out to clasp Shiho's hand with her own. ]
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[She's not sure she believes that at all. But Shiho won't hold too tightly to Maya's hand, keeping her own grip loose, ready to let Maya withdraw from all this if neede.
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But just underneath all of this is something like... bittersweet nostalgia. As though Maya's recalling something from this, something she can never return to. ]
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It helps that underneath there's something bittersweet lurking and so she... lets go. That's too far to go into something she shouldn't be looking at.]
.....Is everyone here like this, or something? You're all so embarrassingly honest. You, Minato, Kaoru-chan.... everyone. [never mind that's only actually three people.]
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